Can I say it for the 1 thousandth time? Aging is absolutely awful. I hate it. Ok, I don’t hate all of it. I really just hate menopause. What the heck is it all about? As if having to deal with this our entire lives, let’s throw this new wrench into the equation that makes it a thousand times worse. My spouse could genuinely never handle this in the least! I don’t know if I will be sizzling hot or cold from 1 moment to the next. The cold flashes are just are just as unfun as the sizzling flashes for me. I spend more time in my motorcar just driving around than ever before. That way I can blast the air conditioning as long as I want without bothering anyone. Then when I am done with the sizzling flash, I can turn the oil furnace up full blast to hot back on. It is a non-stop vicious cycle of uneven body temperatures. But, I can’t live in my car. So, at the house, I now live in the guest room all alone My spouse just can’t handle my constant body temperature fluctuation. This way I have a portable electric heater and a window cooling system. I literally go back and forth from heating to air conditioning all night long. I am not sure how much of this I can take right now. I am just hoping once I get through this stage of my life, there is something better on the other side. I suppose I deserve that after all that I have been through!